i was actually planning of spending yesterday home, an absolutely amazing idea, with my wife and two kids. but with most of the past days i had, i spent that day at the office again. i did meet my family that evening at the yoga center for the weekly group meditation and after having dinner there i accompanied them to a waiting taxi and went back to the office.
i know that day was fathers' day and should be spent with the family. again, my twisted logic tells me - this is my day and i will spend it according to how i want it spent. however, my absolute truth tells me - nobody will be a father if not for his family, will they? so spend that day with the only reason why you are a father - your family.
the one thing why i am so guilty about what i did or did not do yesterday is because i pinpointed that day as father's day, as the malls are apt to remind you, and missed "celebrating" it. i never had this problem before of being a father, that i have been doing all my married years, until that mall-reminded--father-day in the calendar. every day i try to perform my duty as a father. if am not able to finish it for that day, i would simply finish it next day or next next day, or next whenever until it is finished. those four years that i was separated from my family was my most difficult father performing days as i had to do my duty and not seeing them. but i never missed a day of not being a father.
not even yesterday. i will just simply do it today or next next day or next whenever. but i am sure i will be able to take my family out to dinner and remind them that everyday, as long as i live, is a father's day.
